Tuesday, August 03, 2004
The Birthday Card July 2000
Jonathan gave me this birthday card July 2000.
Jonathan wrote on the card (I'm correcting some of the spelling):
To my best friend DeBi
I wish you a happy 23 (38)
years old birthday. Keep on
being the angel as you were.
hope to meet you until i'm
30 or 40 or who knows forever maybe
your friend and cousin,
Jonathan
And the explanation is:
First, we used to joke that although i was 38 years old, i was a young 38, like only 23.
Jonathan had given me, what we called, "the angel speech." This means that he told me that i was an angel sent to help him. (I did my best). But the speech was very long and very intense when he gave it to me. And he used to refer to it when he needed me to do something. I was his angel.
Third, as you can see, the suicide was always looming. At this point in time, things weren't going so badly, so he thought he would stick around to 30 or 40 or maybe longer.
